Day 21: Well under half my original dose now. Side effects surprisingly has almost vanished. Instead I am getting these massive bursts of inspiration and just spent 4 days hyperfocusing on building my studio. I have had this image burned into my brain for years but have never settled in a place that felt like home. Now that I moved back to the coast, it was time to grow roots and ground myself. This is more than a studio for me. It is my sanctuary. It is my altar.

I think a little presentation is in order. The name is Brian Lyngsaae, 46 years of age. I live in Denmark, with my girlfriend, her daughter and my son from previous marriage. In been in the pagan/heathen community 2010. Ive been in a blòt guild since 2011. I primarily work with Jotun and thurs, but also some asir/vanir. n 2021 my girlfriend and I became goði and gyðja in the same blòt guild in northn zealand. Hope i can gain and some knowledge and inspiration on this platform. ***Picture will be added later***

Úlfhéðnar: The Óðinnic Wolf Cult To preface this, this won't be a historical post on the Úlfhéðnar. This is something from my personal practice, inspired by history and used for the current modern time of Norse Paganism. For me and my journey Wolves have been a staple of my practice, and my own personality. Something I have embraced fully this past year. My middle name being Ulfr, and from a very young age I knowing my Fylgja. She is a black wolf that watches over me, I have seen her in a few dreams, but mostly others who dream of me see this wolf. My aunt most notably when I was a young boy. And today, most often when my fylgja is seen by others, they see the wolf in distress, and this has alerted a few within my circle of hard times I am dealing with, as I am not generally one to openly speak on what I am dealing with. Anyways, for a long time I was lead to believe the wolf was just bad, untrustworthy, angry, and dangerous, a force of destruction. I've been told many negative things through my life about the wolf, but I looked to the positive aspects of the wolf, protection, loyalty, and one huge factors for me, the untamed primal spirit, Freedom. Now onto this whole "Úlfhéðnar" and "Óðinnic Wolf Cult" thing. In 2022, I started my organization, Úlfung (Wolf Tribe) for all those following the Norse spirituality in my area, and over this last year I've worked on a sort is side project within my organization, The Óðinnic Wolf Cult, something we know somewhat of as we know about the Berserkir, the Úlfhéðnar, and the phenomena of the Germanic Männerbund (Koryos), that became what these warriors were. In general it's been common through history, for many shaman, and warriors alike to wear the pelts of animals and take on their aspects in rituals and battle. So one day I really sat down and asked myself, how would the Óðinnic Wolf Cult today look like? (And of course can't be called Wolf Tribe without some wolf stuff going on 🤣). Now of course, we as Norse pagans, are not warriors like they were in the Viking Age, and before. And we certainly are not Vikings. But the spirit of this Wolf Cult doesn't just die off. So I got to writing, and doing far more research on the subject of the old Koryos, and the Úlfhéðnar in the Viking Age, looking at the phenomena. We know little of what was really practiced, but we can make educated guesses, and interpretations. This is a Faith after all, and we are reconstructing day by day, so long as we don't try and change/rewrite the history and properly acknowledge our Personal Gnosis and Interpretations and make the right distinctions then all is well. So in my interpretation, it looks something like this: To start, it is a Männerbund, or Koryos, a Brotherhood or Band of men, so the first requirement for our group is of course being a man. (Sorry ladies! We also have female only positions within our organization though!) Now as stated we aren't Vikings, and we arent the Úlfhéðnar of legend either. Its 2025, we aren't 'berserking' into battle. So on that, we won't just allow any would be dude with anger issues, who bought same faux fur shoulder pelt all the dudes from the Beard Struggle wear off of Etsy, claiming that he 'See's red when he's angry' and nothing can stop him! (You can see I've had some personal experience there...) And being in America... For Helvede... It seems there's a plethora of guys who know nothing about the spirituality, but they saw something about Berserkers once and it was super MANLY so they become BerserkerVikingKing9000. Now I won't say that fighting is off the table within this though, My inspiration aside from wolves of course, does come along from my profession in Private Contracting. Fighting is kind of a big deal, and being capable of handling yourself and protecting others is a key factor. So we do take a dedication to fitness, and training, and believe each person who chooses to follow this, should be very capable even if it is not exactly necessary. For me, there is no separation between my faith and my work life or anything else. My faith is with me always, and in everything. Infact, my wolf pelt is sitting out on the passenger seat of my car while I'm at work, it's never far from me! Within our 'Wolf Cult' one of the biggest aspects is further embracing the Animistic aspect of the old ways, digging deep into the primal elements of ourselves. Heavily embracing the spirit in all things, and taking it upon ourselves to join efforts in cleaning up parks, wildlife areas and more. While we encourage all of our members to do so, as this faith being Animistic should drive one to that, being conscious of the natural world greatly, it is a Requirement for those in the wolf Cult to do so with their brothers. The Dedication to Óðinn. It is an Óðinnic Wolf Cult after all, and with that we swear not only oaths of fealty, and Loyalty to one another, but we swear to Óðinn, we fight for, learn and follow Óðinn's path. We follow the god of fury and frenzy, acting as his howling winds in the wild. Embracing the wild and primal wolf spirits! Many of our practices involve Utiseta, and trance dancing. Going to sit out in the woods which are most sacred to us in just Wolf Skins, as we work to connect and learn from the ancestors before us, or dancing wildly by the fire howling out in the woods and embracing the primal and free spirit of the wolf. Among all the other practices of Forn Seð. To avoid writing a book here, I am condensing a lot, and keeping it simple, but overall being a part of our Wolf Cult takes a lot of dedication and an unwavering faith in the Animistic ways of Forn Seð. And in terms of dedication, we also require that those who want to be part of it have a genuine wolf pelt to wear. We have ethical sources the pelts must be obtained from, and it benefits Wolf Conservations and efforts. And on the off chance a member hunts and kills a wolf, so long as it isn't them just going out targeting and killing a wolf for the sake of its pelt, and they actually had a reason they had to defend themselves or another from the wolf, we allow them to have that kill be made into a pelt to wear. Anyways, this may all sound silly to some, be an inspiration to others, or something that some don't care much for, and that is okay! But if it inspires you somewhat, than I am glad! Enjoy this fun video in the Koryos for further inspiration and learning as well: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=LbIwi1HxmpE Image from the Torslunda Plates

Integrating Tarot and Rune practices Q: In one of your videos, you mentioned that Tarot and Runes—essentially, any two egregores—should not be combined in practice. The question is: how can one transition smoothly, gradually, and gently from one system to another without experiencing negative consequences? A:That is a great question, and here is my response. The core issue is not necessarily a conflict between egregores, as it might initially seem. It is crucial to remember that we are working with magical tools, which operate on a level slightly above egregores since they are shaped by entire magical systems. Each magical system, at different points in time, has been influenced by different deities—this is an important distinction. With that in mind, both Runes and Tarot function as magical systems, each deriving inspiration from distinct traditions and divine influences. Because of this, a potential for conflict exists. Tarot is fundamentally a southern system, with roots in Sumerian-Akkadian and Egyptian traditions, while Runes originate from a northern system, shaped by a different cultural and spiritual framework. However, this does not mean that they are inherently in opposition to one another. Ksenia Menshikova https://youtu.be/EltY0NOT400?si=5ycrVxssbOgZyFWV

Well, it’s taken only about 25 years, but I think I’m biting the bullet and getting some new tattoo work done, and I can think of none better then some of the folks here for advice on something… My particular heritage is primarily French from Québec, with both sides of the family having solid roots in Normandy. I fell into the DNA rabbit hole a few years back, and even invested in a few tests (while they were on sale) to compare… French was naturally prominent, but there were surprises.. Some Scandinavian traces were still there even from French communities where very few ever left the Saint Hyacinthe area.. To this day, my mother and I are really the only two of three in the family that left & speak English lol… Comparing it to archeological dna services like mytrueancestry has definitely been revealing, especially when it highlighted an ancestral link to Visigothic and Danish roots (with many other Germanic influences, including a smidgin of Norwegian).. In any case, I’ve always been fascinated with the Elder Futhark and all things proto-Germanic. I currently have a camel spider tattooed on one hand, and a scorpion on the other.. Due to a promise I gave to fellow soldiers after our 1992-93 Somalia tour that I’d “fight” them on a bar table once we got home to remind us of our only entertainment out there lol. The idea is to add runes on my fingers… I have tried to research the proto-Germanic inspiration for the Nordic influence of Huginn & Muninn.. These would be transcribed using the Elder Futhark, and figured these to be Hugiz and Muniz. Any thoughts by those with a bit of knowledge in this area? Once settled, I also have an itch to get the Visigothic Eagle on one side of the neck, and the well known Raven from Vikingtid banners on the other side… Both would be fair homage to two ancestral links.

We had 13ft/4m swells yesterday due to a massive storm hitting the coastline. Through violent tides, Njörðr gifts me with endless depths of inspiration. #coast #inspiration

"Those without purpose are easily distracted by pleasure." ✨ [Danheim] is one of my inspirations through the dawn of my journey and the awakening light of my karma. Thank you for your Music. https://2ly.link/24DEX

I had a very new friend die just now. I want to share with you all something vulnerable and personal. I hope it is ok with me sharing this. If anything, maybe this can shed some light on someone else struggling with this. This is going to be a long post, and I don't expect many to read it all the way through... or even fucking understand what I am trying to say. Trust me, I am used to people having no clue when I talk about this, including doctors and therapists. I think I just need to get some of this off my chest for now. He was a fan of mine for over 2 years and just realized recently the beard care products he was buying was made by the same dude, me. He reached out to me back in December with a long email and asked me what inspires me to my core. I sent him a long email back explaining that my "inspiration" is honestly more of a curse rather than blessing and explained how almost all my life I experience something called "Óðr" in Old Norse, translated to something like frenzied inspiration or divine madness, but there isn't really a proper word for it in English. For me though it is very vivid which leads to insomnia, mania and psychosis if I don't get what is in my head... out of my head. This happens with my music, my scents in my products and through my artwork. This resorts in me basically sacrificing everything in the pursuit of literally not going insane. (I can go more into this in another post, but for the time being let's just leave it here). He responded back in a very long email explaining to me that my email and my explanation of Óðr put into perspective his entire childhood and how he too suffers from something similar, but he must draw it from his mind. If he doesn't draw it exactly how it is in his head, he has to keep trying. He had tried to see doctors for it and they all labeled him having a form of OCD, but there was nothing else in his life that was even remotely related to OCD. My therapist thought I had a form of schizophrenia, but I doubt that. With everything I had said, for the first time he felt understood. For the first time, there was someone else out there that knew exactly what he dealt with. I mean, damn, for the first time I felt someone else finally understood what the fuck I have to deal with. For him though, it got so serious in his head this led to attempted suicide twice not being able to get this out of his head in time. Through these conversations and vulnerabilities shared, a bond was made unique to anything I have ever experienced. It was a bond that felt spiritual. Fast forward to about a week ago, he told me he was losing weight rapidly and went to the doctor and got the blood tests back and they found out he had pancreatic cancer. The doctor told him that he doesn't have much time and needed to get his things in order for his family because surgery/chemo is not possible. It was too late. He died a few hours ago. The thing that fucks me up the most is that it was my music that made him feel at ease when dealing with Óðr for the past 2 years without even knowing it was because of Óðr I wrote those very songs, and it was my music that has been playing nonstop for the last 2 days now easing him into the abyss next to his wife and children. According to his wife, it will be my music at his wake/funeral. I just want you all to know I read every one of your comments. I read every one of your private messages and try to respond to everything I can. I grew a very unique bond with this man when realizing that we struggle through the same mental state that is so unknown and undiagnosed. The number of messages I receive from you all about how my music affects you on a very unique and deep level... I see you. I cherish you. <3 I had a song called Hel's Embrace I planned on releasing when I released the full Helsa's Saga. Hel's Embrace is the 6th chapter to that saga. I will be dedicating the track in memory of him and plan on releasing it soon instead. Rest in peace, brother. 🍻 "Kven skal synge meg i daudsvevna slynge meg... ...Du er løyst frå banda som batt deg" - Einar Selvik

1.27.25 'Modern Viking' was an ambitious idea of mine I have had for a couple years now. My goal with this track was a bit more cinematic. I wanted to capture the moment a modern-day heathen soldier had a near-death experience on the battlefield when his heart stopped and he began hearing the Einherjar chanting only to be resuscitated back to life while being medevacked. You all know me, I can't help but be cinematic with my music :) When I first originally thought of this concept, I wasn't skilled enough to pull it off yet. I have learned so much since then when it comes to mixing and mastering my own sound, as well as producing my own video content, with the major changes in my life recently I felt it was time. I was originally inspired to do this song after listening to a few personal stories of near-death experiences during war. Mixing these inspirations with a life-changing "death experience" I had with DMT once and the fact I had been sitting on nearly 2.5 hours of audio recordings of war 'gifted' to me from a special someone (thank you for all your insane stories), this song was inevitable. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X8p6YLKD-Ok

Noiduin is a Finnish Dark Folk act hailing from Pori, located on the Western coast of Finland. Noiduin draws its inspiration from Finnish mythology and folklore, and the songs are often based on ancient Finnish spell poems. https://youtube.com/@noiduin?si=NHqdPLsNok3yBo_2